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Ok i randomly took this picture(actually I took like ten) the other day when I was drivin home. I turned into this neighborhood like pretty much across from my neighborhood and just watched the sun go down. Corny and a lil cheesy i no ,but it kinda put a lot of things in perspective for me. As I watched I just was i aww of how GREAT God is. Recently I've been goin through a lot of stuff. Well... not just me but the ppl round me also and just watchin it made me think bout how i pray n I ask God for things. When I do this half the time I don't really leave it in his hands.Then I continue to let it burden me.Well im slowly learnin to just let it all go n leave it in the hands of one who paints the sunsets in the sky. 

My trip to NY was really good. I felt like I walked away with a lot from it. I think there was many reasons why I needed to go that I don't understand right now ,but maybe will later on. Lately its been really hard for me to just leave my life in God's hands and trust in Him. A lot of stuff has really got me down and discouraged and yet I no so much worse could be happpening to me. I'm just having a really hard time. Please Pray for me...

So... yea today has been the most spontaneous(sp) random day. So I'll start from the beginning. This mornin I was talkin to my mom which I usually never get the chance to do. Well somehow we got on the subject of my future and how I wanted to do so much and yet I feel like I'm held back by not having time or money. Which I'm sure most ppl could relate. So I started tellin her a few of the things I wanted to do such as go visit my friend in Germany this summer, go back to New York, go on a missions trip pretty much anywhere, and go on a road trip to like a million diff. place but I didn't tell her bout that one. I knew she wouldn't approve.

So today when I got home she told me she had looked up plane ticket prices to New York. So I went back and forth with the idea b/c it was a lot of money for me. Then my parents told me they would pay for it and that was goin to be my senior trip present.

So now I'm goin to New York!  I totally didn't see that one comin! I'm goin in like two wks. all by myself. Well I'm stayin with an aunt of mine that lives in Long Island. Man I still can't believe this I'm still tryin to take it all in.

Ok so Tuesday was so funny b/c these two guys that I work with are always tryin to get me to dance with them. If anyone is wonderin I love to dance ,but at times i'm shy . Anyways we all ended up dancin in the parkin lot after work it was so funny. Def. Good times good times

Yesterday was such a good day!  It was so much fun...

So after school Micheal gave me a ride to Starbucks in return I had to clean out his car which had like a million bags of fast food everyway. Case meet me at Starbucks n we just hung out and talked. Then I talked to this crazy kid (hehe) on im for bout a hr. He's pretty cool I guess  ,but learnin a lot bout him. I did some other stuff. Then me n Case went out to eat (Subway) were rollin wit the big spenders. lol Then I went n finally got my pics. developed from this summer n my FL vac. I no I no that was like 6 months ago. All in all it was a good day.

Yep so crazy enough Jess got engaged New Years Eve. But it was no surprise to me b/c since me and Jeremy are tight  he told me when he was goin to ask her before anybody else. Anyways hes really a good guy and I'm happy for them. The best part is I found out the other day when a bunch of us had girls night out that I'm goin to be her Maid of Honor.

Christmas was good it was kinda nice to be home this year plus the fact this is proably the last Christmas we'll spend in this house.(the house I've lived in my WHOLE life).But I got some pretty nice gifts ... lots of gifts cards and a broke i-pod from my fourteen yr old brother, but its the thought that counts.We had ppl at our house for like three four days straight. Me and Carolina played CatchPhrase like a million and a half times.good times. oh yeah i was sick for like threes too. yea i forgot bout that. It was kinda good b/c I slept almost the whole time n it was kinda nice. Whenever I wasn't sleepin it gave me time to just think bout life n I kinda needed that... 

School started on Tues. since its started back its been a lot better so far. I think it helps that I text ppl through half of my classes... it makes the day go by faster.Still tryin to decide where i want to go to college and what I'm goin to do bout where I'm goin to live for the beginning of next yr.b/c i'm takin off the semester. 

So we had girls night out Friday night it was a lot of fun! It was crazy n random but thats what made it so much fun. Then last night I went to Maria's surprise birthday party which was fun not quite as crazy though.

Today I went to church after not bein in like two wks.and I find so amazin how after goin there for like four yrs. I still want to go to church and I get somethin out of it each time I go. Idk

I guess I'm blessed...